Yeah, so it is pretty clear that I have completely bailed on this years 31 days. I had high hopes but knew there were going to be challenges and I suppose the challenges won! And, I am so OK with that. I am not going to beat myself up or feel like I failed just because I can’t keep up with the big kids. Someday I will be able to do that but for now the interruptions and imperfections of life are filling my world with beauty, purpose and the bounty of the fall season.
I think I was also challenged with the material I had decided to attack and found that I just didn’t need to be dredging up certain things that I thought I was ready to tackle. It’s all still in there but I have discovered that while my past is deeply affective in my life-it is no longer how I define myself. It is the lessons I have gleaned from many of those experiences that have been essential in the formation of my faith, how I deal with people and how I interact with my family. Well learned lessons, though hard, I cannot separate myself from the experiences or impact but I can choose what to focus on and I find that the future holds so much more promise (and good material!) for what I would like to share along the way.
Which means, for now, that I don’t know what to write about-at least not on this blog. And, for now. True confessions… I am watching my guilty pleasure-Sex and the City reruns, making plans and I am pretty sure that there may be a glass of wine later to help with the reevaluation process.
For those who have been following along-I do feel like I owe you and apology but more than that I would love to hear directly from you as to what you would like to see/hear more of. I don’t want to waste readers time and while I desire to keep it simple and keep it real. Let me know!