I have come to the conclusion that I am suffering from ‘Post Master’s Disillusionment Disorder’-disclaimer here-I am not making light of any real disorders out there. What I am doing is taking aim at the fact that my ‘superior’ (yes, they used that word) qualifications have made me outstanding in my field! Really-it is more like out standing in a field of rejected applications, discarded resumes, wasted discs(undoubtedly doomed to live out eternity in some landfill somewhere :/), un-answered emails and harvesting a bumper crop of debt from postage alone!
It wasn’t so long ago that I was coasting on the idea that now that I had my MFA (a terminal degree-what I now understand as having more than one interpretation) I could find a ‘real’ job. Needless to say, I have not found that ‘real’ job-or any job for that matter. I have tried every angle; implemented well intentioned advice-read the blogs-tried the suggestions and here I sit-waiting on the furnace repairman wrapped in a blanket and wondering what to do next.
This odd dichotomy of occupying both realms of over and under-qualified is not what I was prepared for. I have continued to try to exhibit as often as possible-entered competitions and submitting proposals and so forth- I am not hanging out just waiting for opportunity to come knocking. Unfortunately for my under/overqualified self all these things require funds and with no job-real or not-these opportunities are gradually becoming out of reach.
What to do now? I refuse to allow myself-regardless of qualifications-to give myself permission to wallow. Believe me-wrapped in my warm little blanket I am sorely tempted! OK, so I have allowed myself to rant a bit-but it was more or less to get it off my chest so it didn’t devolve into something else. What I need to do now is figure out what is next. I am down to my last 6 stamps and how do I make those work hardest for me? I choose to keep the faith! Keep getting involved and trust that some one out there is looking for an artist who is overqualified to do a good job or willing to take a chance on someone who is qualified in the wrong areas but fully capable and willing to work hard!
My word for January has been ‘Peace” and I continue to focus on what that means. Even just saying it quietly to myself helps me take a deep breath and relax. Peace is something I aspire to and pray that it touches you today as well!